What I should be doing...

So I just got out of one of two of my finals for today and I have two hours before my next final. I should be be studying for it and I am sort of. I have my notes out  and I have gone through the primer for the final exam. It's just i can concentrate. If I don't know the material right know, two hours won't make a difference. So instead of trying to cram knowledge down every hole in my body, I'm on tumblr looking up Markiplier and Jackspeticeye. I'm also listening to Disney movie original songs on repeat. My brain can only handle so much stress. I'm only human. Which actually works for me. I don't have to have every formula entirely memorized. Most of the calculations in Chem are about changing the units of the number. I really good at memorizing conversion ratios. T-minus one and half hours to go. I thinking I'll go get some food for lunch.

First snow.

The first snow came today. I lucked out. I quickly shoved on one of my heavier coats. I wasn't going to, but it was next to the door. It wasn't snowing when I left for class, but between my first and second class it started. 

 I guess there is going to be a white Thanksgiving. I'm a little upset that it's snowing, but man it's beautiful. 

Not looking forward to when it's a foot deep and I have ten minutes to get to class. 

Destiny USA

Three hour drive and we're finally here. 

This place is huge, three stories of amazingness. 

The place is beautifully, especially near the wonder works museum. I spent more time in that section then anywhere else. 

Coolest part of the trip was the rope course. I spent an hour on that thing. I had always want to go on one. I didn't realize how bloody scary it could be. It was insane how much terror can pump through your heart walking a thin rope with only a harness to hold on to. Luckily I did not fall, but my hands were red afterwards. 

The only thing that I didn't like was the Christmas music playing. 

I'm not ready for Christmas. Not at all. Everyone seems to have skipped over thanksgiving for Christmas. It's kind of sad. 

Lilo and stitch bracelets 

Harry's wand as a pen

And this thing. I didn't get a lot but I really like what I got. I tried to go shopping for others, but I couldn't find anything. Oh well. 

Overall I had a great time and would so do it again. Though next time I would do wonder works instead of actually shopping. 

Day trip.

Today I'm going to destiny USA on a day trip sponsored by my college. Ten bucks for a coach bus. Holy cow the bus is insane.

Leather seats

TV for movies

 

Outlets

Wood floor. And most important wifi!!! All for ten bucks. Wow! Great start to a Saturday on my own. 

First test down

First final test done... Four more to go!!!

I really can't wait until this is over. I can picture myself chilling reading the books I just downloaded. I want to just skip to next Tuesday at around 2. 

So far the first test was actually really easy, but then again the class was intro to Christianity and I have been taking religion class since pre-k. I already knew most of the stuff that I had learned in the class. It was more of a refresher than an actual challenge. I don't think Chem will have the same feel to it. 

Fainting

Today I nearly fainted. I was getting an eye exam, for what ever reason I got really faint and nearly passed out. The doc had but in this eye liquid to dilate my eyes. It stung and I guess the pain, heat, and panic caused me to come close to going down. I recognized the signs before that happened, but it wasn't enough. 

I got the joy of smelling salts. Man those things are bad. Apparently it's not unheard of that people will faint during the exam, but apparently it's mostly guys who go down. Not even normal size guys, but fireman sized guys. That was at least how it was explained to me. 

Today..

This has been the longest day. It started with me coming home from a Harry Potter night at midnight. I finally got to sleep at 1:15ish. I was the awakened at around 4:45. My little brother was having a medical emergency. Both my parents went with him to children hospital. They thought it was a hernia. Luckily it wasn't, but it was something else. Little bro had to go into surgery for the thing. They have been gone for twelve hours now. Little bro just got out of surgery, but he can't come home until he can actually eat food. He's apparently pretty hopped up on drugs right now. It has been a very long day.... Praying that he will be home soon. 

R2D2

I'm So while on my class trip last year to Disney. I thought I would have a little fun. I'm a big Star Wars fan and my mom got me a plush R2D2 for my birthday. I decided he was to cute and that I would take him with me. This was the result: 

Getting ready!!!

Early morning wake up! So tired. 

On the plane waiting for take off. 

Just landed. Wow it's hot. 

On the bus to Disney!!!

Chilling near the pool. Waiting for our rooms to be ready. 

So cute... The ears are so adorable!

Somebody got a new hat! It was then promptly stolen by R2

That is one big golf ball!

Selfie time. No idea what country this is... Oh well. 

Recharging during a lunch break.

Turtle talk with crush was the favorite show at epoct out of my friends. And they weren't going to go in. 

Waiting for fireworks. Totally worth it. 

 Day two magic kingdom. 

Look books. 

Off the beaten track. So peaceful. 

R2 wanted to enroll in M.U. 

Day three animal kingdom and Hollywood studios. 

R2 didnot go on the tower of terror with me. 

But he did get a light saber!! ( not really, that's all mine) 

Photo bombed. 

And finally packing up to go home. 

Thus the adventure ends. 

Group projects

They are great if people are communicative and active. Not so great when you can barley get in contact with your partner. For a project I'm doing know. I have the latter. I couldn't really connect with her and she never checks her email. Like ever!!! I was stuck making most of the contact and most of the slides. And now, the day before the presentation, is the first day that we are actually meeting. I really hope she shows up soon.... Because I'm getting antsy. We have to combine our info and practice. Should go over well. Not! This is causing me a lot of stess which is funny because the project is about ways to reduce stress. Yes there is quite a lot of irony attached to this project. 

It's been awhile

Time has passed. Lots of work that had to be done. Doesn't leave much time to blog. I'm going to try and get back in the habit, but no promise. So here is an update. My last post was about the future. Now I'm talking about the past. So far it's going great. I got a great score in Chem and I'm doing okay in my other courses. Today I just had a midterm. A midterm already.... It's going by fast. This past weekend was our fall break. That was great timing because I got sick. Those extra few days were amazing. Unfortunately I'm having a hard time getting back to campus for activities because I'm not motivated to come back. It sucks, but I'm going to try harder to engage. Today I painted a pumpkin. There are so many cool things that happen during lunch hour that no one ever really knows about. 

Dear future me....

So the other day I was watching a YouTube video of teens react where it's was about a kid talking to his older self. I deciced to do my own version of that here. It's funny thinking about the future. I really hope we did good in grad school. Please in ten years from now have at least one book written.... I'm not sure if future me will ever see this. How likely is it that blogger will still be around and I've it's how obsolete it'll be. When college ends I probably won't even continue this and the I'll just forget.... But the thought that some day I might see this and remember... Well it's worth the post at least. Future me I've you actually read this I have a question for you... How has the last ten years been. And for old times sake write a post summing up the major points of our life.

Balancing act

How to balance work, play and school...

I don't have a clue. I don't think you can without trade offs. Sometimes for your mental health you have to walk away from something. I find when my head is overloading, I'll stand up and physically move away from what I'm doing. Usually it's chem. it works though, that little movement helps to clear my head. Sometimes I'll pick up a book and read a chapter or maybe write a page in my own book. It's a moment of calm to help center my panic. 

Full day

Tuesday suck for me, my longest day. 

From 8:30 till 5, with a break for lunch... Other than maybe an hour and a half for lunch I go strong the whole day. 

Labs are hard as stone I swear. Especially when you didn't prepare before hand. Clac isn't any better. 

The only class that isn't mind crushing is religion which is mind numbing. 

I went to catholic schools all my life and this intro to Christianity course makes me feel like I'm back in first grade. Seriously I'm almost tempted to test out of the corse, but that's actually good because it gives me a class to just coast in. Not that I'll blow it off, but it doesn't tasked me like all my other courses. 

Having doubts

So I like chemistry, I really do, but I'm starting to have doubts that it's exactly what I want to do.  I guess I want to teach, but who and what. And do I want to research as much as I used to want to? 

One thing that I've deciced to do is talk to my advisor about it. Hopefully i can talk to her asap. 

Down time

So one part of college that I'm still getting used to is the downtime between classes. I'm used to going from one thing to the next and free time was hard to come by. In college you can go hours between classes and though I like it, down time messes with my head especially when I have to much time in between and go home during the break. 

Honestly it rocks! mental breaks are awesome, but too much makes me just want to get everything done and out of the way instead of waiting around.

Cool down

One thing that I figured last week is that you can't go head first and think that you can get everything done in one shot. 

You have to prioritize what you do and then add in stuff in between. Going without stoping is a good way to lose everything. You'll never get anything done if your brain short fires. 

Also for me I like to listen to music while I study. I created a playlist on YouTube just for studying. 

Now my playlist is weird it goes from "Ever Ever After" Carrie underwood to "Into the woods" to "Not one of us" from lion king 2. But that's me... I'm weird.

So first week....

Yeah that wasn't stressful... At... All.....

Though I have to say I got lucky. Most of my classes are in the afternoon. So there's that, but having Clac 2 and Chem ten mins apart is not fun. After that have ethics, half of the time I think they're speaking Greek and then they actually added in Greek and Latin terms justttt to spice it up...

Chem labs... I'm actually going back to those composition notebooks that you had to have in second grade. Seriously how old school is that!! I guess it makes sense, somehow, but now I have to go out and get one. Oh well... 

Don't get me started on homework. Yeah, I had no social life to begin with, but now... Now I have a valid excuses to hide away in my room and never come out. 

Let me explain

This blog is going to be more like a diary then anything. I started college last week and it can be stressful. I'm hoping that this blog will give me something to focus on when I'm stressed. I'll try to post a lot, but don't hold your breath. 

I will at times drop of the face of the planet. That's just what happens sometimes. 

If you really don't care to follow an introverted Chem major cool, you can just move on. 

If for some reason you do want to follow a freshmen in college who doesn't do much, one weird and two I guess this is a great place to start.