Dear future me....

So the other day I was watching a YouTube video of teens react where it's was about a kid talking to his older self. I deciced to do my own version of that here. It's funny thinking about the future. I really hope we did good in grad school. Please in ten years from now have at least one book written.... I'm not sure if future me will ever see this. How likely is it that blogger will still be around and I've it's how obsolete it'll be. When college ends I probably won't even continue this and the I'll just forget.... But the thought that some day I might see this and remember... Well it's worth the post at least. Future me I've you actually read this I have a question for you... How has the last ten years been. And for old times sake write a post summing up the major points of our life.

Balancing act

How to balance work, play and school...

I don't have a clue. I don't think you can without trade offs. Sometimes for your mental health you have to walk away from something. I find when my head is overloading, I'll stand up and physically move away from what I'm doing. Usually it's chem. it works though, that little movement helps to clear my head. Sometimes I'll pick up a book and read a chapter or maybe write a page in my own book. It's a moment of calm to help center my panic. 

Full day

Tuesday suck for me, my longest day. 

From 8:30 till 5, with a break for lunch... Other than maybe an hour and a half for lunch I go strong the whole day. 

Labs are hard as stone I swear. Especially when you didn't prepare before hand. Clac isn't any better. 

The only class that isn't mind crushing is religion which is mind numbing. 

I went to catholic schools all my life and this intro to Christianity course makes me feel like I'm back in first grade. Seriously I'm almost tempted to test out of the corse, but that's actually good because it gives me a class to just coast in. Not that I'll blow it off, but it doesn't tasked me like all my other courses. 

Having doubts

So I like chemistry, I really do, but I'm starting to have doubts that it's exactly what I want to do.  I guess I want to teach, but who and what. And do I want to research as much as I used to want to? 

One thing that I've deciced to do is talk to my advisor about it. Hopefully i can talk to her asap. 

Down time

So one part of college that I'm still getting used to is the downtime between classes. I'm used to going from one thing to the next and free time was hard to come by. In college you can go hours between classes and though I like it, down time messes with my head especially when I have to much time in between and go home during the break. 

Honestly it rocks! mental breaks are awesome, but too much makes me just want to get everything done and out of the way instead of waiting around.

Cool down

One thing that I figured last week is that you can't go head first and think that you can get everything done in one shot. 

You have to prioritize what you do and then add in stuff in between. Going without stoping is a good way to lose everything. You'll never get anything done if your brain short fires. 

Also for me I like to listen to music while I study. I created a playlist on YouTube just for studying. 

Now my playlist is weird it goes from "Ever Ever After" Carrie underwood to "Into the woods" to "Not one of us" from lion king 2. But that's me... I'm weird.

So first week....

Yeah that wasn't stressful... At... All.....

Though I have to say I got lucky. Most of my classes are in the afternoon. So there's that, but having Clac 2 and Chem ten mins apart is not fun. After that have ethics, half of the time I think they're speaking Greek and then they actually added in Greek and Latin terms justttt to spice it up...

Chem labs... I'm actually going back to those composition notebooks that you had to have in second grade. Seriously how old school is that!! I guess it makes sense, somehow, but now I have to go out and get one. Oh well... 

Don't get me started on homework. Yeah, I had no social life to begin with, but now... Now I have a valid excuses to hide away in my room and never come out. 

Let me explain

This blog is going to be more like a diary then anything. I started college last week and it can be stressful. I'm hoping that this blog will give me something to focus on when I'm stressed. I'll try to post a lot, but don't hold your breath. 

I will at times drop of the face of the planet. That's just what happens sometimes. 

If you really don't care to follow an introverted Chem major cool, you can just move on. 

If for some reason you do want to follow a freshmen in college who doesn't do much, one weird and two I guess this is a great place to start.